things have changed for me...

[themusicorthemisery]

i hardly know how to get back into the swing of this. everything and nothing has changed. i'm watching a tiktok live which i don't normally do but this guy is good at singing and i'm having fun. he also knows backseat lovers and the brobecks and i'm living. my throat currently hurts so fucking bad, but we're blaming it on the beach trip (which i loved and miss, and it was only like two days ago).

i'm also in two qprs which i don't think was the case last time i logged on here. insert funny comment about getting bitches. but i love my people i love my guys i love getting to feel so much love all the time. i've always been full of it, but getting to share it? amazing.

i'd talk about school but it isn't awesome and doesn't make me feel good about anything. the psych i was looking forward to also... isn't awesome and didn't make me feel good about anything either. hope i remember this place more often, or maybe just have more to say. i wish i could write freely again but that part of my brain is so locked away. don't know if i should rejoice or mourn. time will tell.