room 161, your hand on the gun

[themusicorthemisery]

if i was a cartoon character, i'd have floating stars circling my head, but every other star would just be some form of testosterone. i am awaiting a call from an endocrinologist which should be... so close to getting on t. i know i'm mentally letting a lot ride on this, but i'm finally just ready to do it and figure the rest out later.

when i asked my doctor about hrt, her first words were "i knew it!" which was so silly and immediately reassuring (i could literally hear my heart beating in my chest). overall she just said she'll find someone local with more experience to refer me to, but she can be the prescriber and everything (which is cool because i like my doctor actually). so now i'm in a waiting game that feels a lot more final than it has previously... excited but nervous.